My life isn't interesting at all, but I do know the concert went extremely well, I had so much fun!
I've barely eaten these past few day. For some reason I enjoy the gnawing of hunger in my stomach. It makes me feel alive and like not everyday is some boring routine. I've been running, trying to clear my head. I just keep going and going, in circles. Another routine, just going in circles. I want to smoke. Just one, they help too and my mind is screwed up insanely. But the store wont sell me matches because I'm under 18.
Now onto Pat, this might be one of the few things I ever regret. And seriously, I only regret like, 2 things in my life. I am actually like, extremely sad about all of this...
I think he just wants me for my body. He doesn't have any intention of actually dating me. Maybe I'm just some sort of prize to him, and our conversations are getting scary intimate. This is a text from him: "
Haha anything you can put out I can take and want. Anything you can do, I want you to do it twice."
Haha. ouchh. It's probably cuz I'm easy, well, I think I'm easy.... And he wants to go for a walk in the woods before we go bowling, kind of sketchy, but he said it was for the privacy. What? The privacy to rape me and kill me? And he said to keep it a secret, he said it was ok to tell Beena so I did, who told everyone and I got mad at her. But truth is this makes me so nervous, this whole thing in it's entire. Some small part of me just hopes that he'll ask me out there because he doesn't want to on AIM, hahahaha but how stupid could I possibly be?
The answer: veryy.
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