So today was fine, I woke up looking nasty as shit. Swollen eyes and a red face. Now I have a sty and im so freaking pissed. So past the way I look today. I woke up and went to my bassoon lesson, it was pretty good and everything, I got my pitch right ☺ and then to Latin where we drank hot chocolate and watched Gladiator… again. So anyway’s Taylor comes up to me and bumps me when I’m stirring my hot chocolate.

“Oh what now. That coulda spilled and burn all down there.” I laughed, “If you can’t tell, I’m sorta inappropriate.” Taylor said.

“Haha that’s fine. If it did spill, I’d throw you out the window and that woulda made my day.”

“Pssh, your so tiny I doubt you could.” We both laugh. “So how many scoops do we put in.”

“I put in 4 and a half. I love the marshmallows.” Taylors stirring his and scoops up his marshmallows and looks like hes gonna put them in my cup. “Ehh nahh.” We laugh and walk back to our seats.

That’s the most exciting thing that happened today. Hahaha.

I went to advisory after that and I saw all my grades! Honor roooooollllll!!!! B- in College Algebra. B+ in Latin. A- in Physics, A+ in Chorus and Band, A in Holocaust, and A- in Brit Lit I think. So I’m pretty happy about that. And then after that I went to physics where Christen and I started on our Lab reports yet we had to give in each a separate one, then after that I had College algebra where I got my test back… a 69…. opps well, better luck Friday. Lunch I came back to the dorm and did random shit until English where I sat there nearly falling asleep again, and participated.

I went back to the dorm after school watched a few episode of The Office and slept until check in. Yeah I’m lazy, but tomorrow I’m staying up late for the concert. I’ve come to relize that patt and I don’t want the same type of relationship. He wants a physical one and I just want a slow, maturish one that I can end once I leave for college. So I guess now that I know this it has affected my feelings for him, because I realize I don’t like him like I used to…

So Mike and I started this whole insulting each other through our AIM status.

Mike’s Status: I’d name my climbing trail after you.
Emma’s Status: aww you’d name a trail after me?!?!
Mike’s Status: Not you Emma.
Emma’s Status: Oh snapp. That hurt. Hahaha.
Mike’s Status: Silent Treatment
Emma’s Status: This marriage is gonna work out so great
Mike’s Status: Bitch please, your ignored.
Emma’s Status: haha two can play at that game. btw, love you.
Mike’s Status: Still Ignored
Emma’s Status: Come on, give in. you know you wanna
Mike’s Status: Bitch please
Emma’s Status: If your nice to me I’ll give you a ride on my motorcycle this spring.
Mike’s Status: NO COMPROMISE
Emma’s Status: We all know you love me, why don’t you just say it.
Mike’s Status: Still no compromise.
Emma’s Status: I’m sorry, did my punch bruise your manliness ego?
Mike’s Status: You punch like a girl.
Emma’s Status: You act like a girl.

Hahaha, I <3 you Mike. oh so much.

Anywaaayyy, I guess I suck at writing what's happening in my life, my Xanga just isn't the same as it used to be and that makes me sad because I miss writing about my days, maybe I should get back into it. So Patt and I are going bowling again this weekend and then to the sandbank afterwards :) who knows what will go on there, probably just make out stuff. I know I'm easy, but I can't help myself. And yes, I'm trying to keep in mind that he is 15, and he probably isn't mature enough for the relationship I want. I went to the play with Devvie and it was so much fun we ran arund and hugged people and talked and then we went to Honey Farms and Devvie bugged Sheebs for some ciggs and then we went to Northeast and ate food there and the beck to bugging Sheebs for cigs. I took Devvie home and then fell asleep while talking to Patt on AIM.

I worked on Saturday and then I went to the mall with Beena and bought a phone charger. We also "window shopped" aka scopped for hot guys. Then we went to her house and hung out, talking a ton ton ton :) made me so happy. I learned that Great Grandma was in the hospital sick, so I'm worried. I said that in church the next day also. I was the supervisor of the stocking stuffing, so it was all good. I didn't really get to talk to Patt and he had band practice instead of Confirmation so we couldn't hang out. Then at night the dorm had laser tag. I got the high score in both of the games :) so much fun, i was sweating like wicked though.

I studied 10 hours for my Latin final and i got  a 106 :( instead of a 110 and I made stupid mistakes, I was so mad at myself I almost cried in class. i ended up with an 88 in that class and a 91 in Physics. so far so good!!!

Today was fine, nothing noteable happened. ooooo wait i forgot the best part of my weekend. I got my Christmas present from my parents!!! They're Trans Siberian Orchestra!!!! omg hell yeah. This Thursday!!!! so excited, i freaking love them!

Took senior pictures, i'd post them but my the internets so slow.

Some IMs between Patt and me:

P:im busy friday
E:so maybe not this weekend.
P:deffinatley church
E:yeah
P:i dont think thats enough time for me
E:well... i dont know then
P:i miss you to much

HAha i'm evil
P:but that means ill be right up against you
E:just a suggestion
P:and my body would be pressed right against you
E:yeah....
P:and i might get....
E:might get....?
P:your going to make me say it?
E:i haven't a clue what you're getting at. we could just pretend you never said it, if that makes you feel better...?
P:ok ok, ill explain saturday if you want
E:idc. you don't have to explain to me at all. if you dont wanna
P:well its a possibilty if we're that close
E:ok.... somethings a possibility if we're close.
P:wow really? if your right up against me i might get....
E:handsy?
P:well yes but another thing too
E:umm dominant?
P:no no, you really dont know?
E:no. do you want me to keep guessing or drop it?
P:im worried it would freak oyu out
E:haha, takes a lot to freak me out
P:ok im going ot tell you then
E:ok
P:if we're that close, i might get...it starts with har and ends with d
E:ok. hard so.....?
P:so im just saying
E:lol its fine. your not the first
P:you didnt notice last weekend?
E:haha i knew
P:you felt it?
E:yup
P:you didnt mind?
E:uhmm nope



E:lmao Tina just told me I'm so cute
P:Tina who?
E:Tina Huang. From Tiwan
P:oh. well thats odd, but she's right
E:haha aww your so cute.
P:eh maybe. but theres no question you are. it takes a lot to through off my bowling game
E:haha i'm sorry, I cant help making faces at you, your reaction is so funny
P:haha to be honest, i kinda liked those faces. and i still owned you
E:yeah, well I told you i'm horrible at bowling
P:you owned everyone first game

P:do any of your friends know about us?
E:from which group?
P:either
E:well Tian does... and so does Beena
P:and about...all of what "us" is?
E:and what are are we?
P:thats a good question
E:yeah it is
P:well we're deffinately friends, but are we more?
E:can i use my usual answer? I dont know
P:i think its more a question of do you want to be, but we dont need to talk about it now
E:well, do you want to be?
P:i would rather have this talk in person to be honest
E:ok. i would too
P:sunday?



P:haha im a nerd
E:a cute loveable nerd
P:haha i guess that makes two of us<3
E:yeah <3
P:why do you have to be so damn cute?
E:haha i'm not though
P:lier
E:I just act cute
P:aaaand you are cute
E:your cute too
P:is that why you like makeing out?
E:why i like making out with you?
P:yeah
E:no. I'm not that shallow
P:its a part of it though right? but whats the main reason?
E:haha, well, I guess its cuz i like you. stupid yeah
P:like me or like like me?
E:whats the difference?
P:well do you like me as a friend or like...the other kind
E:to get out of this question I'm going to say: I dont know
P:youll tell me sunday?
E:yeah I guess I will… Do you make out with me because I'm cute?
P:thats a peice of it i guess, but its more than that

Talking about making out:
E:thats good. I hope you never get bored of it
P:oh my god how could i?!
E:i dont know. probably somehow
P:i highly doubt that
E:good

One with Andyy
Andy: Well hey your really cute but not the hottest : P no offense i have someone else in mind
Emma: Haha, your so narcissistic!
Andy: How did you know I was talking about myself?!? but still you are ;)
Emma: Thanks, but I’m interested in someone else

I'm telling Patt to go to bed.
P:haha but if i talk to you i get less angry at thursday and friday for existing
E:sorry.... i dont know what to say
P: say that you... nvm
E:say what?
P:nothing, i dont know if you would
E:tell me and i'll decided
P:no, it has to do with what we are. and its kinda a big deal
E:ok...
P:sorry, hopefully ill say it to you this weekend, and then you might say it back
E:ok. is it ok if i'm totally lost
P:yes. its also kinda cute
E:haha thanks. i get lost often....but go to bed
P:no
E:ok fineee
P:i like talking to you. deal with it
E:but what if you get too tired and you cant function tomorrow and you get a bad grade or something. then i'd feel terrible.
P:relax. im a clever boy
E:i know, i just dont want you to suffer because of me
P:this is suffering?
E:not me. your grades and school
P:A. Its worth it. B. its not that late. c. I like you to much
E:ok, i cant argue against those
P:especially c
E:no definitely not c
P:i cant even fix that one
E:i'm sorry....?
P:you should be. Why you have to be so damn cute and loveable?
E:haha, i can say the same for you
P:you know even if we werent talking i would be thinking about you. I'm always thinking about you too
like when i wake up im waiting for texts and when i go to bed i miss you the most... is that obsesive?
E:uhmm i dont know
P:did it freak you out?
E:haha. i dont think so. i'm just at a loss to what to say back
P:sorry if that was to much
E:no it wasn't i'm glad i know
P:your glad you know what?
E:a lot about how you feel about me
P:well there it is. im not really into the hinting in this case
E:wow um thanks. i dont know what to say. i'm really sorry

yeah, I'm actually going to post a real blog sometime next week, just studying off for my Latin final coming up!